Taking a break

I talked about doing this a few months back and never did. I have gotten myself too wrapped up in this game, online for hours upon hours upon hours. I don't know if I had a moment of clarity or if the shit finally hit the fan and I needed to make a decision. I'm taking of the next 5.5 weeks until August. Then I can reassess if I want to keep going in this game.

I have great jobs, good crafting, a ton of gil, and am in one of the best Dynamis LS's on this server... but I have no real friends. No one to talk to when I'm online. Sure I converse about meaningless dribble in /linkshell chat but that is just ambient chat. People have stuff I want but don't have. People are in linkshells that I want to be in but am not. People are doing things and killing things that I am not because I am not in that "circle of people" that are doing the things I want to do. I feel like I'm at a party with people who are no fun playing music I don't like talking about shit I don't care about. I'm sitting on a couch in the corner staring at the host's CD collection wondering why the hell I am still sitting here.

Well, I've been unhappy long enough. I'm getting my ass up and leaving this party. I may be back, I may not. I'm not sure. But I bet I'll be happier not stressing over the things I don't have and the stuff I'm not doing if I'm not confronted with it on a daily basis. Until then...